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Monday, June 4, 2012

Too many words

and not a single one fits. After three days of condolences and helpful advice I'm just about ready to round up every single word that has been spoken and delete them permanently from the hard drive that is my mind. Like a corrupt file.

Franzi, the balcony gnome


Today my step dad would have turned 66 except he never made it. He died on Friday. Unexpectedly. From a heart attack.

His legacy: a garden full of orphaned gnomes. Many of them still in his workshop too. Waiting for a coat of paint or a few finishing touches.

The cats miss him. So do mum and me. 

21 comments:

  1. I know there's nothing that I can say to ease your pain but know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.

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  2. Ana, I am so sorry. Thank you for letting us know. There is absolutely nothing harder than the unexpected death of a loved one.

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  3. Dear Ana, I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you have someone near to comfort you. 66 is so young.

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  4. So sorry. Prayers for you and your Mum.

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  5. Oh, I'm so very sorry for your loss. What a shock this must be.

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  6. Ana, so sorry you are hurting. Condolences to you and Mom.

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  7. Ana, I too am very sorry for you loss. Death always comes so unexpected, your step-father´s especially.
    Thinking about you..

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  8. Thank you all for your support. I feel a bit lost and don't know quite what to say. The funeral was yesterday and I'm trying to get back to normal whatever that may be.

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  9. Ana,belated condolences to you and your mother at this very sad time. Ida

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  10. I just saw this -- and I'm really sorry (which seems like such a weak phrase, but I hope you know what I mean). I absolutely love that he collected gnomes.

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    1. Lori, thanks :-) the gnomes were his creations too, he made them from clay, sculpted them and painted them. It was his lifelong dream to make them once he retired.

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  11. Dear Ana, hopefully you are on your way back to normal. You are in my thoughts. It is so sad you being still a young woman had to experience this loss.

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    1. Thanks Paula! Life is quite different now, I suppose is part of growing up to deal with things that are tough. I just wish he lived longer, 66 is too young to die.

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  12. I just wanted to say my hellos to you, as your blog has been inactive so long, for reasons we know.
    There must be lots of practical work at this time, helping your mother to adjust to her living alone. Did you take some time off work? Are you having time for any vacation this summer, any plans?
    I just wanted you to know, that I have not forgotten you.
    Hugs your way, Mette

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  13. Was just thinking about you today,and wanted to let you know you are in my thoughts. Ida x

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    1. Dear sweet, sweet ida!!! Thanks :-) I haven't been really inspired much these days so my blog is a bit neglected. There has been a lot of running around tying up loose ends. It's frustrating how much bureaucracy one has to put up with after such a shocking personal tragedy: miles and miles of paperwork and certificates and stuff. Very annoying!
      On the other hand the weather has brightened and things no longer look so glum. I'll be back to active blogger status in no time.

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  14. Ana,take your time....all that bureaucracy seems wrong at such a sad time,thank goodness your mother
    has your loving support. Ida x

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  15. I am so sorry to hear this. My thoughts are with you and your family.x

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    1. thanks for your kind words of symapthy. It gets better with time, I'm learning to cope with it.

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